19.7.06
even cel agrees with me that the tester's niao. just my luck. oh well.
alicia told me that szeloo and margaret are leaving. wonder how ms cl's gonna survive in september...when even alicia's gone. i've this good intention in mind to go back to help her out...but i wonder if it'll be the right choice. the people im close to wont be there anymore..of course there's still the others but it wont be the same. alicia's a damn nice girl...im starting to like her more. girls like her deserve to be wooed by guys really.
cel's gone and i feel dead inside.. i really do. and when i think of her i feel like tearing. like now. she's touched down in sydney. i really hope she'll do well there and lead a happpy life. will be awaiting her return..i realise it isnt that easy to let go. when you think you have, everything just comes back and hits you hard, then you awake with the revelation that you're still human - that you still feel. that no matter how much you try to shun, avoid and deceive, some things just remain unchanged. regardless of all that has happened over the past two years, she really still means a whole lot to me. more than i thought i guess.. im not expecting equal treatment or reciprocation..i just need to let it out. my heart's aching very bad. for all this while, i've never been true to you or myself. im very sorry cel.
wish you never left.
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the niao old man failed me. i hope for someone younger next time...someone who still probably has testosterone flowing in him. then my chances of passing will be higher. haha. anyway i was lucky cos my warm-up route was the same as my test route, or almost actually. so i knew exactly what to do. but but but but. there were so many buts la. the warmup instructor told me to speed up to 70km/h wan la. then make me kenna from tester after that cos the old man doesnt like speed apparently. my other bbdc instructors lurve speed i tell ya...those are real men. haha. then vertical parking was like SHIT. my warmup was PERFECT. then the test one was horrendous beyond words i felt like just telling him, let's just not do it. i cant. but somehow i managed to squeeze in between the poles..and i think the old man hallucinated or sth cos he said i struck the curb and i felt absolutely NOTHING. goddammit. so that cost me like...erm..4 points i think. then cos i kept trying and trying to get into the lot, i failed to check safety once. another 4 idiot points. ARGH.... ok there were other stuff too. but vertical parking was the major screwup. so i didnt mount curb, let passengers cross, i didnt do anything to cost me an immediate failure like i'd hoped for...BUT. i still failed. next freaking date is in OCTOBER!!!!!!! shit.
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18.7.06
omg. the tablet pc's driving me nuts. i cant get the wireless network to operate so i cant go online. wth. and i cant sign into the smu network on my home computer as well. FREAKS. the CIT helpdesk isnt picking up the phone either. im a noob at networking and im so stranded. sigh. but other than that, it's fun using the tablet. ytday i was busy writing and scribbling, seeing how untidy my handwriting can go before it cant recognise what im writing. and u can write in chinese too! pretty cool...i think my chinese handwriting's nice enough to be recognised easily. haha. just now i was drawing with this art programme. very cool! u even get to wash the paintbrush after using and there's the sound of washing it too. kinda neat i must say. thanks dad for the wonderful tablet. :)
it's raining. WTH. not today of all days..past few days have been so hot! please stop before my test...tmd. i cant afford to screw up with low visibility. alicia wished me good luck just now and cos i read the msg in a haste, i thought it was alvin who sent it. hahaha. but hmm, i didnt make any boo-boos in replying fortunately. :) im surprised she remembers. i get to see her tonight! :)
my favourite goldfish's on the brink of death. seeing it dying hurts. i'd rather it died. it's struggling so hard i cant bear to look at it. poor baby sweetie. get well soon.. :(
mic called and im going for the retreat on sunday at sentosa. ooh..anxiety. i heard they've got like weekly sessions to kbox. as a cca, i think mic's a great deal cos i get to do what i like on a weekly basis. i hope it's going to be fun with nice people around to make friends with... :)
ooh my dad just offered to send me to driving centre. what can i say...my dad really rocks. he's the only person who remembers stuff abt me, takes care of me and does everything for me without a single complaint. really love him...no matter what he does, i'll support him and be filial to him too. thank god for my daddy. i'd be nothing without him..
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16.7.06
YAY! ytday was real good. although i was having a sneeze attack the entire day. and i realised that my nose is red cos of the sun, not cos i kept rubbing it. so cel, yr right. haha. the four of us spent a good afternoon idling around sentosa, baking in the sun, strolling by the beaches, watching a macaw show, playing bridge and trying to cheat our way in and out of sentosa without paying. we headed for marina for andersen's fondue. ck SO had to give us away...what's new eh. haha. i was too tired to really enjoy the fondue. the sneezing was killing me but well, the chocolate still tasted really good. and the 20% saving was like woots! a pleasant surprise for cash-strapped us, haha. after they left, i met terence and even though i was already very shagged, it was still fabulous. i struggled to keep awake throughout pirates even though johnny depp's my favourite star. but i managed to stay awake till the end! :) everything's perfectly perfect now. i cannot wish for more. thanks all of you.
this is <3!
i love the way darl looks. altho im not pretty. haha. :D
see the contrast between a first and second shot. sian diao already..haha
my family. :D
pirates!
i love the way fel looks here. pretty! :) i just HAVE to put this up. hehe. irresistible!
uh-oh. mm im straight okay..
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